my drama sequence

now i know what my role is in this family: EA. Everybody's Alalay.

parents recently bought a dslr and they're asking me to learn it. what for? to have me as the go-to person when there's a problem with it. i'm 100% sure that the person who's going to benefit from the dslr is my sister >.< she's definitely going to hoard it to flaunt it to her friends. her arguement: she has more important events to capture than my experiences with my friends. 

but wait. there's more. she's going to have her cheerdance competition on saturday and she's "kind enough" to ask me to be the photographer/videoman. i was surprised at first, coz i was invited to dinner by my friend who was celebrating his birthday. yes, i was ready to turn down my sister for it. but then she began ranting like i don't have the right to choose that over her competition. and that i promised her to attend her competition.

all this time, i've been letting her have her own way, not nagging about her choices in life anymore. and now, something that i want to enjoy for myself and i'm fucking deprived? 

when will it be my happiness then? 
when?

LAGI NA LANG PARA SA KANILA.

of course you wouldn't understand. you would never understand. 
or in the worst case, YOU DON'T LIKE TO UNDERSTAND.

yes, i might sound ridiculous but THIS IS MY LIFE and you can't take it away from me. 
you might know what's good for me, but i doubt you know what's best.

not anymore. 

why is it that the only passion you have for life has to be taken away from you? 

why?